Uncontrolled Emotions Leads to Disaster.

Long ago, in the Kingdom of Israel, there ruled a King named David. He had several Queens and no doubt quiet a long list of children too. Among them one was a young lad named Amon.
Right from his childhood, Amon was a quiet child, reserved and aloof from the others. Unlike the other prince he would withdraw and play by himself. Eventually when he grew up he had few friends too. No one knew what went on his mind. Amon grew up hating all his brothers and sister whom, he thought were smart and good looking. He nurtured the idea that no one liked him because he could do no uncommon things like the others. Every other prince knew horse riding very well. They could sing very well. Their Father, king David was an excellent singer with the harp. Amon knew that he can never stand up to his Father who was also a mighty warrior and respectable King among all the neighboring nations.
Amon struggled with the idea that how he could draw attention of others and make others take notice of him. As he turned 18, Amon grew restless. Here was a lonely prince who was no ones heartthrob. His brother Absalom who was very tall and handsome had so many girls following him. What can he do to draw attention of the girls? Amon was experiencing so many new emotions within him that he could not control. Day by day he felt the urgency to have a girl who would love and admire him. But which girl would he choose?
Amon’s idle mind rested on a girl whom he had known long ago, in fact from her birth. She was none other than Tamar his own half-sister. Tamar was the only daughter in the family. She and Amon had the same father but different mothers. Well, the truth is that desiring a sister in a wrong way was a sin but Amon with his wrong pattern of thinking could not discern right from wrong. As the days passed by, Amon became obsessed with Tamar. He fantasized about her day and night. Amon felt it was all right to feel that way because he had no self-control. Truly his imaginations and cravings were getting out of control.
One day Amon devised a crooked plan to catch Tamar alone. Tamar being the only princes in the household was always surrounded by her aids. She was beautiful. She no longer jumped and played like before. There was a kind of shyness and restraint about her, which made her even more lovely and fresh.
Amon pretended to be very sick and asked his mother that Tamar be sent to Amon with food. The unsuspecting mother of both Amon and Tamar agreed to the proposal and Tamar was assigned the duty to take food for her brother.
The innocent Tamar went with food to his brother. Amon was overjoyed to find Tamar all by herself. Actually he was so much in love with her that he lost all reasoning. Yet he was careful not to give away his real feelings for Tamar. The beautiful Tamar served food with care and concern for her brother. Little did she know that her half brother’s intentions were not right?
On the third day, the palace was very quiet, as every one had gone out to see a fair. Almost every one was out except few guards and maids. Tamar was also dressed up to go to the fair with her friends. She asked them to wait outside the palace gate and quickly took the prepared food to be served in her brother’s chamber.
As she entered the room, Amon grabbed her and pushed her towards the bed. Tamar was shocked and was totally spellbound. Before she could find her breath to scream, she blacked out.
As Tamar came to her senses, she found herself in Amon’s bed, disheveled and defiled. She was too weak to walk. She could not speak, only tears rolled down her cheek. Her dreams were shattered. The world crashed around her.
But Amon was sitting with a rueful smile in his face. He was no longer in love with Tamar. The woman who seemed to have charmed his senses no longer seemed attractive. The person that lay before him was no longer Tamar but just a body.
Amon was not sure why and what was going in his mind. He thought he could achieve love by forcing some one but he himself no longer felt the same towards the person. What was wrong with him?
Amon’s beastly actions not only sealed his own doom, but also brought disaster in the family. The relationships were strained between both the queens. Tamar’s own brother Absalom nurtured revenge against Amon, and poor Tamar was never the same again. The king was grieved over his son’s conduct. It was a shame for the whole family.
All because of Amon who could not canalize his own feeling and emotions in the right directions.
………..From the Bible……….